Tuesday, October 13, 2009
New Era Cap
1) Atlanta Braves Big Mesh 59FIFTY Fitted
2) Atlanta Braves Epic Word 59FIFTY Fitted
3) Boston Red Sox 59FIFTY Fitted
4) Boston Red Sox Epic Word 59FIFTY Fitted
5) Boston Red Sox NU Tymes 940 Adjustable
6) Boston Red Sox Seasonal Basic 59FIFTY
7) Boston Red Sox Straw 59FIFTY Fitted
8) Buffalo Sabres Alternate 59FIFTY Fitted
9) Detroit Tigers Epic Word 59FIFTY Fitted
10) Toronto Blue Jays 59FIFTY Fitted
In case you guys wanna check the other design... they have like thousand of it.. You can check it here...
Terror show in Singapore - Session for Deadscore
29th September 2009
Trip to Singapore - Terror show
Kerja berlambak kat office siang tadi, so agak penat sikit malam ni. So i feel sorry to them sebab tak dapat nak berbual sangat. Masuk je dalam train terus ke katil aku, and baring.... Penat.. memang penat....
We bought a tics to Bugis, and then keep walking straight to the lodge. Sampai je lodge, adik kesayangan aku di Sg sudah pun menunggu di luar Lodge...haha siapa eh..? muka dia sama macam muka aku... haha
Right after check in, terus mandi... and keluar.. wish to get new era punya cap... Boston.. tapi takde stock la pulak...
Went back to the lodge after shopping, tidur sekejap... and around 5pm we woke up to get ready for the show..
Some pic taken during the trip.... Enjoy..
Thanks to Joanna, Shahidah for putting up the show... Haikal and the rest... especially adik kesayangan... hahahah
Friday, August 28, 2009
Second Combat - latest tshirt
Second Combat 'Sinking' and 'Blaming the kids' t shirt is now out for grab
RM 30 by hand
Rm 40 by post ( price including postage )
How to order?
1. Bank in the amount in the account below
Maybank - 112344357284 - Mohd Fazli Bahar
Ambank - 0780012009060 - Mohd Fazli Bahar
RHB - 11211600327644 - Mohd Fazli Bahar
CIMB - 14300061838520 - Khairuddin Abd Aziz
2. Please keep bank in slip in hand because you will be asked for proof of payment later.
3. Once your payment confirmed, please allow 5 working days for the delivery.
4. You can order from here by leaving your ordering information in the comment box below.
5. I will contact you back asap. I am certainly looking for serious buyer only.
6. Or you can grab it by meeting us at the local shows.
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Second Combat - Xfm XGig X-Tended
Second Combat - Blaming the Kids
Second Combat - Infidelity
Second Combat - From our heart to our lungs
Monday, August 10, 2009
Second Combat RIP
After all the good times and bad times we had, we finally decided to break up after 13 years together. Thanks to every bands that we played with, Every labels and people we worked with, Every kids that come to our shows to support us, we will miss that.
At some point when a band getting well known they decided to give up on that, maybe they just tired. That's what we had been through. We had so much fun together as a band. As our aim and mission had been accomplished. Its just sad that some countries that we didn't discover yet. We never gave up as an individuals that embrace these positive political values around us. All we wanted to achieve is to make kids sing together believe in every way that HC has its reasons at the same time make a change in our community and corrupted society.
Second combat is always a big issues from now and then. As everything always a problem to us eventhough its seems minor to you when bands hate bands, scene hate scene, people hate people its pretty obvious we had it in our scenes. But why does this still happening? Since we had watch and learn to what happens in Palestine, Afghanistan, India or Indonesia, or some other part of the world that racism will burn us down. When un-ordinary people were cast away because of their differences? We need to think this over. Theres too many things we wanna talk about as we standup for the kids, for the people, the environment, and for the animals.We want people to listen to us and to learn. Take a look to whats going on in the world instead of worrying about what's the latest trends might be. As the society look us a garbages which screaming for nothing as they prefer their children to hangout at the night clubs at every weekends.
We did not gave up as an individual and our principles as we are still straightedge and we still vegetarian. Maybe we start as a punk band and end as a punk band eventually its all in the same category. We needed a rest after the non stop shows and tours we had. We still here to support other bands and organize a good shows. We will try to make a comeback someday. Please bear with us.
Thanks for all the hatred, rumors, shit talking, backstabbing we had between friends. We still have time until DECEMBER so you can either throw anything or any comments to us before our last show.Write your testimony here for the last time.
Thank you so much.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
Missing
Pelajar : Guru, apakah erti cinta..? Bagaimanakah saya boleh mendapatkannya...?
Guru : Ada sebuah ladang gandum yang luas didepan sana. Berjalanlah kamu dan jangan sesekali kamu berundur, kemudian ambillah satu ranting. Sekiranya kamu mendapati ranting tersebut sangat menakjubkan, ertinya kamu telah menemui cinta.
HOW I WISH TO TURN BACK THE TIME.....!
Monday, August 3, 2009
AN INTERESTING CONVERSATION.
He asks one of his new students to stand and .....
Prof: So you believe in God?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Prof: Is God good?
Student: Sure.
Prof: Is God all-powerful?
Student: Yes.
Prof: My brother died of cancer even though he prayed to God to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But God didn't.
How is this God good then? Hmm?
(Student is silent.)
Prof: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, young fellow. Is God good?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Prof: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From...God.. . .
Prof: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this world?
Student: Yes.
Prof: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And God did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Prof: So who created evil?
Student does not answer.
Prof: Is there sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the world, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Prof: So, who created them?
Student has no answer.
Prof: Science says you have 5 senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Tell me, son...Have you ever seen God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Tell us if you have ever heard your God?
Student: No, sir.
Prof: Have you ever felt your God, tasted your God, smelt your God? Have you ever had any sensory perception of God for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Prof: Yet you still believe in Him?
Student: Yes.
Prof: According to empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my faith.
Prof: Yes. Faith. And that is the problem science has.
Student: Professor, is there such a thing as heat?
Prof: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as cold?
Prof: Yes.
Student: No sir. There isn't.
(The lecture theatre becomes very quiet with this turn of events.)
Student: Sir, you can have lots of heat, even more heat, superheat, mega heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat.
But we don't have anything called cold. We can hit 458 degrees below zero which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as cold. Cold is only a word we use to describe the absence of heat. We cannot measure cold.
Heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.
(There is pin-drop silence in the lecture theatre.)
Student: What about darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as darkness?
Prof: Yes. What is night if there isn't darkness?
Student: You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the absence of something.
You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light....
But if you have no light constantly, you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it?
In reality, darkness isn't. If it were you would be able to make darkness darker, wouldn't you?
Prof: So what is the point you are making, young man?
Student: Sir, my point is your philosophical premise is flawed.
Prof: Flawed? Can you explain how?
Student: Sir, you are working on the premise of duality. You argue there is life and then there is death, a good God and a bad God.
You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure.
Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one.
To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing.
Death is not the opposite of life: just the absence of it.
Now tell me, Professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?
Prof: If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, yes, of course, I do.
Student: Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?
(The Professor shakes his head with a smile, beginning to realize where the argument is going.)
Student: Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor,
are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you not a scientist but a preacher? (The
class is in uproar.)
Student: Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the Professor's brain? (The class breaks out into laughter.)
Student: Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's brain, felt it, touched or smelt it? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then trust your lectures, sir? (The room is silent. The professor stares at the student, his face unfathomable. )
Prof: I guess you'll have to take them on faith, son.
Student: That is it sir... The link between man & god is FAITH. That is all that keeps things moving & alive.
WANT TO KNOW WHO THAT STUDENT WAS
Dr. APJ Abdul Kalam, the 11th President of Republic of India.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
SECOND COMBAT interview by TSH zine
TSH: hi ein, so you are the frontman/spokeperson for one of the most important band in the Malaysian HC scene these days, maybe even in SE Asia. What do you think about the HC scene today, is there any major differences you can see in the scene between now and in the past?
Ein: Yes, in fact there is so much different than the last time. Back in the years we were totally naive about everything. Compare to the last time we were struggling to achieve to what we become today. What we’re trying to achieve was quality. I remember the last time how hard it is to produce an album or an EP or even a demo of a band. Prices are so expensive for us by that time and we didn’t know how to do it. To get better releases you either have no choices to either go to the big labels or just stay where you are. We decided to stay on our foundations and learning from our hard situations. We didn’t even know how to do a proper recording. No one had shown us. In 2000 we recorded an EP with a live recording. In 2002 we did our 1st track by track recording for a 10 way split. And in 2006 our 2nd EP was recorded in a proper studio with a proper release by Commitment and United Front.
We found a better way now to run our scene. We started with United Front. We help bands to do the recording and help them with the promotions.
TSH: you speak about what’s on your mind and addressing on a lot of political/social issues and stuff like that on stage. But of course some people prefer bands to get on stage, play faster, and get out of there without leaving something for the crowd to think about, rather than have as much fun as they can, nothing’s wrong with that, but I think hardcore is different, it is a weapon, if we know how to use it. what do you think?
Ein: When we get involve in HC all we wanted to do was about fashion, moshing and stagedives. As we get older the perceptions started to change phase by phase. We grew up on listening to bands that made impact to the scene that deliver political issues like human rights and animal rights kind of stuff we had actually implied those issues to our messages and eventually adapted the lifestyle of being part of it. Bands like Nations on Fire, New Winds, Minor Threat, and Youth of Today had really made a big impact to us. It really had changed our thinking and lifestyle today.
I’ve seen bands claim to be political and play fast music which is impressive but it left me with no marks at all if the bands didn’t took time to speak about the messages and important issues in every centre of their songs. Most kids prefer fast bands nowadays but careless to see what the bands are delivering. Bands in Peninsular are easily written subjects about DIY, SXE wannabe, Fashion killer, Trendy asshole kind of stuff which for me is ok and probably average subjects to talk about. Political bands should write about political issues like Political prisoner, Animal rights, Human rights, pollutions, and corruptions or maybe I’ve just didn’t have enough observations before I criticized this. Based on a comfortable lifestyle most bands can’t deliver those issues because of their wealthy background and it’s easier to tackle the small subjects than the big one. And most of the political punk bands are drunk at the shows and they can’t really say things correctly regarding issues in Palestine, Iraq and Afghanistan. There’s a few bands that really give some intentions is bands like FSF, Hara Kiri, Mouth Full Of Air, Attack of The killers Tomatoes which most of them come from North Borneo. I guess based on their critical situations made them aware of their surroundings and it’s very important for them to deliver their issues.
Now there’s another issues whereby kids are proud to be negative by wearing Negative HC t-shirt which is pathetic for me, its just not relevant here to promote a negative lifestyle whereby the reason we are here is to change our lifestyle from negative to positive aren’t we had enough discriminations from the society and government which exploit us in their newspaper, tv and magazines? Aren’t we aware of the problems when society sees us as garbage? We are trying hard to make their accusations as wrong but these kids misleading our purposes. Hardcore is always positive to me even though if its not all about SxE .Those negative kids will reflect bad impressions from society which most of the normal kids will have to take the blame of their stupidity. It’s just like Punk kids wearing Nazi’s shirts and leaves a bad impression to the good punks. If these kids Wants to be Negative there’s other places that’s suits them, probably they can be at the club. But not in the Hardcore scene.
For us, Talking, discussing about critical subjects are important. But not to shove it to someone else about ideas and principles we must respect other people too before we open our mouth respect must be earned if a band or a person living their words out.
TSH: the scene back then is not that big, nowadays the scene is like massive, but it’s also like the music mainstream where nowadays you have even booking agents for your tour, big sponsors for your gigs, I’m not saying it’s wrong, or bad, or whatever. But I mean, what happened to DIY? I never know if this ever happened before, I think you see it too, but what’s your stand on this? I don’t want to forget what we once fight for, and I’m still fighting for it this day, where people kind of forget about what hardcore is about because they’re blinded about all the music hype, they care so much of being famous, being well-known, but we are underground, who cares about popularity and stuff like that. Once we duplicate things that have been going in the mainstream music scene that is the moment our hardcore scene dies. Reality is, this hardcore scene based on independent and DIY stance. What are you going to say about that? “Together we can build an alternative to the mainstream of life!!”-mainstrike
Ein: The scene is totally different back in the years 2000-2005. Every scene has its revolutions on the process to be better. In my point of view on what I experience it’s like FIFO in the scene. “First In First Out” kind of mentality. As you can see kids at our age are now can be count at 2 hands. They left the scene once they got into college or better jobs or marriage which is the same excuse for everyone like they felt that they grown older and its embarrassing for them. I don’t give a shit on what people think about what we are. I felt this when there’s no one to rely to anymore, no more good bands, no more Fanzine, no more promoters who could help us to keep the scene alive. That’s where you see bands got jaded and some people in previous HC/Punk bands go to the mainstream, zine editor write for mainstream magazine.
I see the peak of the scene in between 2005-2006 where new kids coming in aged between 16-20 years old for shows. And most of the bands that are around are bands like Underoath, Avanged Sevenfold or metal bands like Caliban or Parkwaydrive. These kids are totally clueless about how and where the scene is coming from; they don’t care about ideas, principles and ethical. All they care is about moshing and stage dives listening to heavy music and go home. Kids who are listening to bands like Minor Threat, Gorilla Biscuits and Youth of Today you couldn’t find them in the scene. And there are only 3-4 oldschool bands around which are only the straightedge bands from Klangvalley. And that is not enough to keep it alive.
Late 90’s where the best years for us for the DIY scene where we have Fanzines, promoters, bands and kids that are aware about what’s going on. The scene became less interesting when kids started to condemn each other, fights and drunks at the shows which show bad example for the new kids that come to the shows. We can’t let under age kids get drunk after the shows this will aggravated their family and people around them, we got to show them a better way.
After the incident of 2004 where 400 kids were detained for having a good time listening to music furthermore the scene were related with black metal music and black magic we learned that the scene needs some securities and assurance for the kids. Kids are scared to go to the shows now while their parents won’t let them be. We can’t let the government and society harass us all the time. We know that we had to do something about the problem. Someone has to confront these issues and justified about it.
Based on all this issues either you quit the scene or you do something about it. We can’t blame everyone that quits or maybe jump into a different scene. The people that stayed struggle to make the scene better by not signing to major labels and stayed as independent as possible to make the scene active should be complimented because they did something to the scene. As long as bands not partaking in the music business by signing to exclusive deals bands should be appreciated. Remember that the power of productions should be on hands not to the businessman who careless about the messages that the bands deliver. If bands played in big concerts or whatever festivals it will benefits the bands or the scene. At least 1% among the thousands will listen to the bands messages and comeback knocking the scene hardcore bands now are like thieves and vultures, were stealing crowds now. We’re running out of potential people that used to contribute a lot. Bands should know how to steal and manipulate new crowd in the scene and make them ours. The used of Booking, sponsors, agents are just imitations on what happens in western scene, this thing happens in European scene too it’s so new to the Malaysian culture. I think it’s an easier for active bands since they have someone else to help them and it’s eventually made 1 more person involve in the scene. We need to get all the old people back in the scene and help us to spread the messages about the importance of DIY and other issues and being Independent without commercial reliable.
TSH: i know this is boring but, how’s the band got together, probably 10 or 15years ago, can you remember it? and eventually became an important militant hardline straight XXX edge band (just kidding about the militant hardline part)?
Ein: My first band was a punk rock band. We started out with a name The Pistons in 1994 we’re so much influenced from bands like Carburetor Dung, Bad Religion, Face to Face, Offspring and Ramones. We played a couple of shows around our area in Klang Valley. I got attracted to punk rock when I was 16 years old influence by few friends that driven me to the shows. The bands split up and I formed Second Combat in 1996. We’re not a SxE band when we started this band, and eventually in 2000 since most of the bands members wanted to be clean we decided to be SxE bands. Reasons for us to be SxE militant band are because of personal issues. It’s been 13 years the band still around and still active playing shows. We just wanted to show example for the new scene that HC is not just for kids but lots of professional people are in it to.
The reasons we wanted to be a SxE band is because those sadistic experience in our adolescence. When I was 14 I smoke my first cigarettes and tried my first weeds, cocaine. I am not aware by that time. People around me mostly did the same things and encourage by my brother and sister. I had my time and quit when I was 21 years old when I found out there’s nothing gain over it. My experience was disgusting for me seeing my brothers become a drug addict and alcoholic drinker. Few of my relatives died because of heart attack cause of smoking 2 of my uncle died by drug overdose, few of friends died of accident because of drunk driver’s carelessness. This entire incident had made me conscious about the pain that we will cause if it doesn’t been controlled. I had taken a step to show example to new kids, friends and family how not to get involve in such behavior.
SxE is not a common thing now in the scene, its not like punk or rave. People don’t know what is exactly are SxE is all about. It’s not just being drug free, it has more than that. But certain people couldn’t take it because of selfishness inside them. They could accept Punk in the scene but they couldn’t accept SxE. The main point here was attacking the industries that produce products that are unnecessary to us that destroy our lives and planet earth by not related this to religions that most of the people like to.
TSH: your lyrics and messages based on many real issues, things that have happened to you before, it was from your experience. Why do you think it’s important to voices such a personal issues while hoping that people think and learn something from it. tell me if I’m wrong but I guess that is what you want, make people think and learn from your personal problems?
Ein: We dealt from personal to global issues. I think its better that we sing about reality issues than the things that you don’t encounter at all. There are so much issue that we can discuss about like the FTA, Global warming, oil, animals and humans rights. But I tried not to shove it to someone else how it should be. It’s always based on choices. Eventually I always wanted people to learn from my experience.
I guess the mainstream and the scene kids are like the same. There are not much of differences to see when we are not refrain those norm habits of consuming productions like cigarettes and alcohol, and were rather work 9-5 than play in a band that can supported our lives. I believe there’s not much of comparison to make when a punk works in banking or a government industries claim to be better than anyone else. When there’s a better punks who rather play in a band and earned a living by not conforming in the society and multi companies. I’ve seen most of middle class punks owning a diploma and a degree which works in comfortable jobs and a better lifestyle had condemn people who play in bands that take money from the shows they played. How could you be a true punk when you are being part of capitalism owning a better life and be punks on weekends condemning other people who are struggling to pay their bills and debts? When these guys own personal credit cards a house and can afford to buy anything whereby are not helping the poor scene at all and saying everyone is wrong. Who the hell are they to tell other people what to do in their life?
I had my respect to all the people that manage to build up their comfortable wealthy lifestyle. To compare my life with anyone else, I’ve always been worried about how my life would be by living on the edge by not earning a qualification at all by living in a poor background family. None of my family members get into universities but we manage to survive by our hardworking and good deeds and I don’t understand why some of these punks complaining about being a temporary slave, having depressions with work when they had a better positions in their company, better salary, a car like what people in Bangladesh dream of. By the talent of speaking and writing that I learned while I was in the scene I manage to get a better job. I am 30 and I am tired been push around by employer all the time while I was at the coffee shop that I work for the last 7 years. Seeing punks had no worries without having a job that’s simply great, because they had their parents to give them money when they needed. Now I am working in a bank with a better salary and I hope to save some money and make my own business some more to support the bands to tour and recording which all I want is to get the hell from this situation when I’m 40. Working in 1 job is just not enough if you playing in a band here. I work several jobs to support the band and the label. We sometimes get money from the show which allows us to pay our flight tickets to anywhere we wanted to tour now. We consider this as job now playing our part to contribute to help the scene growing. People think this is not good taking money from the kids and use it for the bands. We felt pretty bad sometimes when last time its kind of struggle for the past 10 years when we don’t even have any money for a practice and do a proper recording. Some Promoters understand what bands needed a cause for money to practice, petrol, toll, Tour food and other purposes and they give us money. We don’t simply take money from purely DIY shows and people we know. Sometimes we play for free and loose a little bit but it doesn’t matter since we helping them.
This is our personal problems as a band and an individual. And hoping that people could learn and take example in what we do. Thanks to the kids for understand our problems.
TSH: alot of people think to sing continuously on the issue of getting stabbed in the back, honesty, loyalty, friendship, and drug addiction (which i think you have many songs about addiction in the EP on Commitment) is most childish and stupidest thing you can find in the hardcore scene, but I think if it’s real fact of life then why ignore it, cos it must be spoken. what do you think my friend?
Ein: Yes we had encounter this issues lots of times, when some people are dissatisfied in things we said, giving us bad reviews in their fanzines and their forums. When some people think talking about unity is simply bullshit. I guess that’s the basic fundamental of us all the basic of racial harmony, basic of equality and living in community. We had been condemned in local fanzines for talking about racism. Which we think is kind of ignorant and selfish reviews about these subjects. Its maybe an average subjects to talk about, but sometimes different places had a different situations and different stories to tell, how could racism in football be compared in racism in Palestine? We really do think it should be addresses at all time and all means to the society and community. People keep talking bad things about each other about principles and ideas and stuffs but we didn’t realize that there’s an epidemic waiting to outbreak in our scene and we eat it alive. We simply didn’t realize that we are imperialized by our race and significances. How coward we are to talk about racism and let it spread to our family. Did we realize that 90% of people in the scene are Malays? Is this Malaysia or Just Malays we dominated everything excluding the economy. Why didn’t we open doors for them? I know that most of the Chinese and Indians bands are mostly are into mainstream kind of stuffs bands like They Will kill us All, Love Me Butch, Furniture, NAO, Citizens of Ice Cream and those bands that we didn’t discover. Why are they been cast away? Is it because of the music they play or the principles their holding on? To tell you the truth these guys know nothing about DIY, Homophobia, Pro choice, or whatever principles it’s in the scene. Why can’t we be a little tolerable to accept bands like these? Aren’t they having issues to talk about and indirectly they will open doors to more mainstream people to get in. That’s where we should capture their attentions. Unless this bands are demanding for money then it’s really fuckup. Different bands had a different messages to be delivered we just can’t be selfish by telling other bands to do it our styles. Bands have the rights to sing whatever they want except singing about spreading hatred.
TSH: some people step out from the scene and leave bad words about it. some will say, that there is nothing good anymore here in the hardcore scene, and they left because they want to find something better elsewhere, but after 30 years of my lived, I have learn one universal truth which is, there is nothing better somewhere else, because everything else is getting worse or got worst already. I think people like this are just afraid to admit that their hearts not in it anymore or maybe they’re all never have heart for hardcore, just pretending, just try to fit in, years after years before they finally realize that they really never belong here. What do you say about this?
Ein: Actually we had written a song about this in this split EP. What you’re saying is true. I guess we have that mentality everywhere to condemn and to insult for a better position. Some of the kids who used to talk shit about us last time had no longer here. People who had talk the most always is the one who is quitting they got my last laugh. It’s getting normal to accept them and we had learned the pattern already. We can see who is sincere and who is not. People they will keep insulting you, they will always have the words to put you down I guess they are not happy with their life; they needed to find a way to drag other people with them. These guys mostly look smart they can memorize everything they read in the fanzine and internet and use it to attack new kids or people that they are not satisfied with. The looks and words are the same. Just pay no attentions to them because they are only wasting your time.
As for some people who already leave they got my respect. But not for those who’re here for fame and reputations. I think you and I been doing these more than 10 years now and its quite fun and sometimes suffering to see this scene turns its pages.
I think hardcore scene had saved my life they had shown a better directions. Instead last time my life was a mess. I drink, smoke and do drugs without thinking the consequences. I probably end up at my own desk now with a better paycheque and conform to the companies that I work and spend every night sleeping with any girls that I Found at the club or maybe I might be on the back of the street grudging for drugs and alcohols. But I choose not to choose that life. This scene had teaches me to talk, think and write. This is my university where I learn everyday of my life loving humans, animals and this earth. There’s no longer compassion outside there, people are logging for money and a better positions in their workplace, step on everyone that holds on their way. This is a place where reputations don’t count as we are equal to every living thing. This is where I wanted to be for another 30-40 years to come. This scene is not for everyone. So don’t ever dream about it if you are looking for fame and reputations.
TSH: tell us again about the European tour that second combat did in 2007. What do you really really learn from it? did you surprised to see the hardcore scene over there? Many people say that they aren’t really as political as before. You and I grew up with lots of political hardcore bands from European scene, and when you get there last year, what do you really discover?
Ein: We are 10 years behind the European scene. We need to struggle more to achieve their current level. I think The European bands are more serious and liberal in what they do. I have to admit that some of the audience is there only for fashion and am not really serious with the scene. There a lot of people that stayed well over 30’s which is indeed a rarity in our country. That’s the fine line where you can gauge how serious our European counterparts are compared to us. They are also politically minded since most of them are staunch follower of SxE, vegetarian, vegan and anarchist. Here, most of the bands will leave the scene before even hitting 25. Reasons such as work commitment, family commitment and the lack of money (to survive) were all too often given as a reason to leave the scene. I believe the same goes in Europe, but ultimately it all boils down your own determination and commitment in the scene.
TSH: so what’s the plan Second Combat has for 2009?
Ein: Currently we have this split with Motivation which is on sale right now. We are on tour with Motivation to Philippines and some part of Malaysia. We are planning to release a discography before we headed to Japan and Korea on July, 2nd Indonesian tour on August. We are splitting up Sept 2009 for time being and focus on our other bands. We’ll get back together in 2010 for a U.S tour and produce another album.
TSH: Thanks again for this time my friend. It’s great that you have this band going; I think it’s an amazing band. I hope it will stay longer, I hope you guys write more songs, and set up a great example for the new kids about hardcore and all that. Anything else you want to say to the readers?
Ein: We’ll always be here even we are not playing in a band anymore. We wanted to see this scene get recognize by the outside world. We wanted to be the part of the global revolutions. We wanted to reduce suffering and help the poor people. Thank you Saha for the interview. Anyone who would like to write to us please mail us at secondcombat@hotmail.com or write at our myspace and check out our label website: www.uxfrecords.com. Thank you so much for all the endless supports.
~ by timesstillhere on March 20, 2009.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
TO ALL THOSE WHO CONCERN (OR OVER CONCERNED, I MUST SAY)
I guess my issues has become more important in some part of the anonymous’s life now. Why bragging about my personal things with her if it wasn’t? And why is everyone has so much “efforts” into it? Have I ever fuck your sister before? No one to be blamed in between me and her for what happened; The purpose of posting up the blogs with the attachment of “after incident‘s controversies” pictures is totally unknown. For those who didn’t know, I stated clearly up there that it was the "after" broke up things applied to both of us. So stop “concerning too much” and making it an issues like we broke the vow due to my historical’s scandals.
We are both always struggled to be together before and ended up like this, which is something that we never expect and this is way too much. And we know how bad is the feeling to be far away from each other and to this extent; I almost stab myself for that. Look here, you guys don’t even know how stressful our life is lately. So please help us not to get involve with it.
I never put up my words for comments and stuffs to defend myself because I understand how stressed she was in the mean time. And she will never to be blamed for what she did and I let her words run through in each of your mind to judge, just because I know her far better than you guys back then. She posted the blog of which surrounded by Mr./Mrs. “know everything’s” like you guys, for those conveniently leave the comments (to show the extra care) without even getting the clear pictures from both sides, is obviously is in the sense of childish and immature. Again, that’s why I don’t put the blame on her alone; it’s the peoples around her that contributed in making our life even harder.
Family is the most important things that we should deal with after the broke up. We should rectify the errors and there is a great deal of healing to be done. I am also hoping with all my heart that one day we get a chance to be good friends again. I know I could be a wonderful friend to her, as much as she is to me. The greatest outcome of this tragedy is that we never be friends again, a token of appreciations to those who make things even worst for both of us. And that’s why I never bother for all the "shits" you guys left back there because I have more important things in life to do far better.
It is inevitable that one day she will meet another of whom I hope will treat her right with the utmost respect, consideration and love that I once gave. I also hope that he will spend more time curled up next to one another, something that everyone valued and enjoyed greatly which I spend it less and less time before. But I hope she won’t be doing the same thing as she did to me now if the relationship went wrong.
My biggest point in delivering this message to all is this is something that is so personal between me and her. Some can understand it well so why can’t you guys? Is it because you are expecting her to respond and fall in love with you after notice your overwhelmed care for her? Or is it because I slept with your mom, makes her pregnant and turn your dad into gay that make me the horrible person? The destruction has affected so many things around me, not only that I have lost the person I choose to spend the rest of my life with but I've also lost some of our use-to-be-close friend I've ever had. So again please DO NOT get involve.
I hope that one day I will be able to discuss this matter to her face to face. I am however, not able to do so for the time being for fear of the anger surfacing and subsequently confirming to her that she is indeed best shot of me.
Thank you for reading my story. It aint no way covers everything I have to say, there is just so much that I would like to say but cannot express in words. My time with her will always be remembered and cherished; I thank her for all the good that she gave me. I also thank her bursting the bubble that I had become enclosed in, without this I would still be destroying myself and would stand to lose even more.
Hope that you guys will understand...! And please stay away from involving yourself with our personal things. Believe me, it’s not for me, but it’s for her own good. If you really care about her, stop putting up fire for her and make your so called "supportive comment", because you will only pushing her indirectly that soon will burn everything’s down. But then, it’s up to your greater mind to take it if you are smart enough to think before actions taken and start to post some wise words up there.
palicombat
-- From the East Coast to the West Coast, screamo screamo gotta go...! The sudden hit in my head does not feel violent at all, more like being hit by a pillow. So don’t scratch your head, fool. Don’t even try. What you lookin at? Keep walking.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
7 Years
Although I have ALWAYS loved you with my heart and soul, I made you feel that EVERYTHING was more important to me than you. It never was the case, but that is how I made you feel and for that I am sorry. I did not realize how much it meant to you for me to be there for you and to make you feel loved. The hand holding, the hugs, public affection, letting you know how beautiful and appreciated you are, to name a few. I now see the things that I was lacking in. I just didn’t understand how important that was to us. I now know.
I have made mistakes in the past that hurt you and that cannot be changed. What I have been able to do is recognize those errors in judgment and have learned from them so that I can take steps to ensure that they will not occur again. I was selfishly caught up in myself and I regret that we find ourselves in the situation we are now in. I never imagined this would happen to us.
I'm aware that my behavior in the past contributed in part to your unhappiness and the emotional estrangement between us. I have worked very hard now to overcome that behavior, not only for you, but for me and for our parents as well. I wanted to be a better husband, a better father, but most importantly a better person. People can change if they're willing to take a long, hard look in the mirror and hold themselves accountable for who they are. I did that and I'm trying to be proud of the person I am becoming and will always strive to be better.
I still believe we can have a happy, loving, fulfilling marriage. I believe we can learn from our mistakes, grow from them and with effort and desire we can begin to slowly rebuild the love that was the foundation of our relationship and start to become a family again, for our sake. Think of how happy our family would be if we can resolve this matter maturely. I believe we can have a marriage based on trust and honesty where we both feel safe sharing our innermost thoughts, feelings, fears and dreams. I'm not naive, I know there's been a lot of damage done. We would need the help of a counselor to guide us in learning better ways to communicate, meet each other's emotional needs and begin to rekindle the spark of emotional intimacy between us. It won't be easy, but it can be done.
I've suffered tremendous pain from seeing our marriage falling apart, but I never stopped loving you and I never forgot what a wonderful person you are and how much joy you brought my family and me. That gave me the strength and hope to go on.
But the pain has became too much to bear and I cannot continue to live the way we are, so I had no choice but to separate for my own emotional well being. This wasn't an easy thing for me to do, but it was a necessary step. This is not to punish you, it is to protect my feelings for you, and protect any kinda of relationship we can have, if we continue as we are now, there would be nothing left.
I do not want this break up. I want to be your husband, in every sense of the word. I want to hold you, talk with you, laugh and cry with you, comfort you, share the joy of raising a family with you. I want to grow old with you. As much as I want this, you have made it clear that you don't, and as long as you feel this way, I cannot be a part of your life, it is simply too painful.
I love you Ereen. You will always be very special to me. You are the only person I have allowed myself to love so deeply. I loved you more than life itself while we were together and I continue to do so as I write this. I look back through our life and I choose now to only remember the good times and learn from the bad. I forgive whatever pain you have caused and hope that in time you will forgive me too. I just cannot be with you or see you while you still may be involved with another guy and feel the need to have a separate life without me.
If down the road, you have a change of heart and decide you want to give our relationship a chance, I am open to discussing it with you and working out a plan to restore our relationship and make it what we only dreamed it could be, but I will need to know you are committed to our relationship. I still love you, and as I said before, I believe in our relationship and I am willing to do whatever is necessary.
All my love,
p:al:i:c:o:m:b:a:t